Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Times Seem to be Changing

I’m embarrassed. Almost a full month ago, I said my plan was to write this blog more often, even if it meant writing shorter blog-entries.

I haven’t.

I guess I should not have said anything.

The problem is that I’ve been feeling terrible for the past few weeks. It’s all been due to the cancer and the chemo. My weight fell down to about 115 pounds and I’ve been exhausted all day, every day. I’ve had no appetite and some transient pain. As a consequence, I’ve had no real desire to write. Anything.

My typical day started about 5:20 when I woke, had coffee, took pills, shaved and dressed then went to a 7 a.m. A.A. meeting that ends at 8. Typically, I drove home (about a mile) and almost immediately hopped into bed so I could fall asleep. Most of the days I’ve been spending in bed, sleeping or reading. I usually got up at about 5 p.m., ate something for dinner, then watched T.V. with Lynne until about 8:30 when I went to bed.

The last two days have been different. I’ve had no chemo in about three weeks. Instead, I started taking chemo pills yesterday. I’ve felt pretty good. For two days. Yesterday, I was able to have breakfast with Mark Ford, a true friend. The eggs were good but Mark looked sad every time he looked at me. Still, the most recent days have been the best I’ve had in months. God willing, I may be able to start writing again.

I hope so.


Sylvia said...

It's so good to see you blogging again, Kieran. We've all been worried about you. I'm glad you still go to your morning meetings and that you got to spend time with a true friend. I was going to call you this evening, then realized that the Notre Dame game is on television. I'll call soon.
Take care, friend.

Anonymous said...

Hi Kieran. God Bless you.


Wild About Words said...

Hi, Kieran,
I love to read any post you feel up to writing. Glad for your couple good days. Poop on the exhaustion and discomfort! Hang in there, friend.
Much love,

Dr. Swill said...

Hello Kieran!

I wanted to let you know about an interesting cancer blog a group of cancer patients have been working on.

A fellow tongue cancer patient was sent home to die. There was nothing more that can be done. Cancer survivors ask him life altering questions.

Please read:

Peace B

Barry said...

Having just discovered your blog, I certainly hope you get back to posting again.

Wishing you well.